I was three paragraphs into a good write when I was re-directed to look at what I had written. My good write about God and what He had called me to do had become a self centered pat on the back. Self righteousness in all my justified glory. Smug in my role as a judge, a prophetess, a warrior for the Kingdom of Heaven!
It is times like these that I loathe my earthly sinful soul.
I feel an urge to write it but not in this glorified guise of God picked goodness.
I am nothing and He is everything.
It is times like these that I loathe my earthly sinful soul.
I feel an urge to write it but not in this glorified guise of God picked goodness.
I am nothing and He is everything.
Amazing Blog !!
ReplyDeleteYou are following and following well....He is pleased I am sure.
ReplyDeleteThere are two schools of thought to my blogging. Many people and sometimes even I see me as an arrogant, selfrighteous, self-imposing hypocritical mess. I write from a stirring of the waters within, so sometimes that is completely probably and possible. But its like I can't help myself from running off at the hand!
ReplyDeleteThen someone will tell me that the piece I thought was all me and should be deleted meant this or that or clarified this or that. Someone at church or someone from across the globe will say it was shared with them or that God used it in their day.
I realize then that I don't even know how to judge that. And so I write. For those who think it is worthless trash, it is. But for the person who God may touch in spite of my arrogant hypocrisy, the words are important. I write then, knowing that the heart is deceived and desperately wicked but God used a Donkey to save the life of a man. He speaks through the mundane and the stupendous. So, I write.